Toma Hawke

[Toma Hawke]

Toma Hawke

[Attributes] (Insert *'s in each category using the guidelines in the attribute topic)
Power - ***
Agility - ****
Toughness - ***
Intelligence - **
Willpower - ***

[Basic Information]
Full Name: Toma Hawke
Alias(es): None
Gender: Male
Age: 20
Birthday:June 19th
Sexuality: Straight

[Characteristics]
Height: 5’5”
Weight: 175 lbs
Hair: Blonde
Eyes: Sky Blue

General Appearance: Toma can easily be described as scrawny. He’s rather short, especially compared to men around his age. His body is rather lean and athletic, but there’s no bulging muscles. His shoulders don’t seem as broad, adding to his smaller appearance. He has no scars, tatoos, or other forms of bodily changes present.

His face makes him look younger than he is, naturally not having facial hair to deal with. He keeps his blode hair just above shoulder length and straight. One of the more defining features is his bright, almost white, sky blue eyes. They’re often considered piercing or cold by many who don’t know him.

His usual form of clothes could be considered strange by some, but Toma finds it works for his needs. Tight black pants cover his legs, but don’t hinder mobility. Over the top is a skintight black long sleeved shirt that comes down just over the waistline of his pants. Over that he wears an open white shirt that clasps shut, leaving the upper chest exposed. Over that is a blue jacket with detachable long tails coming off the shoulders.

When he’s not wearing that, he’s wearing more normal clothing. He has a preference to blues and blacks that fully cover arms and legs, and will often still wear a tanktop or the black skin tight clothes under it anyway.

Personality:Toma, at his best, is a kind and caring individual. But seldom are people at their best. Toma, having been neglected as a child, needs to be acknowledged in some fashion to feel like he’s alive. When he’s acknowledged, he can be easygoing, helpful, happy go lucky, and seemingly carefree. He can often be seen acting like a normal man his age when he’s been acknowledged in some fashion.

When he’s not, he can be rather clingy. He’ll try harder to gain one’s attention going out of his way to do something they like for this reason. He’s more driven like this, and somewhat depressive or brooding in moods. While it won’t be bad at first, the longer he goes without that emotional need filled, the worse he gets.

He can be very protective of those who do fill this need. He won’t question if he’s asked or told to do something by someone who’s acknowledged him. If he finds ot he’s just being used however, things can end rather badly for everyone involved.

He is an emotionally intense person, often relying on his feelings more than common sense. He does understand he’s like this, and struggles to maintain some form of composure so he can think straight. But this only goes so far, and at some point, those feelings have to be let loose, for better or for worse.

His temper is something that’s especially tough for him to deal with. And while he hates violence, his temper might bring him to swing first and talk later sometimes unless someone’s there to stop him. Often times, a little time alone, or with someone who knows how to take care of him will settle that simmering rage.

His intense emotions aren’t limited to just negative emotions however. When he’s in a good mood, he can be just as intense too. Sometimes, he can come off as being hyper when he’s just enjoying himself. Despite this, he likes cloudy and rainy weather as long as it’s not cold.

Toma is hard on himself, and like other aspects of his life, he’s rather intense about it. If he feels a mistake was really bad, there’s not much you can do to talk him out of it. To make this aspect worse, he’s a man who learns best from getting in and experiencing something, “feeling” it for himself. This goes for his training, or anything in life really.

Strength is a thing Toma aspires to have. Having been wanting to be useful to those he cared about, he seeks to be strong. He doesn’t like fighting, but felt it was the best way he could be useful to people and to be acknowledged. He doesn’t feel strong yet, despite being fairly skilled with a blade, and so he pushes himself constantly.

Toma is, secretly, jealous of anyone who can use magic. He will admit anyone who can use magic will probably beat him as he is, even if he is blatantly a better fighter, or makes better tactical decisions than them in a fight. This stems from his lack of magical talent that his best friend had growing up.

Likes:

Acknowledgement: Toma wants to feel needed. Or rather, needs to feel needed. People who make him feel like he’s needed, even if they don’t blatantly say it are good in his book.

Sweet Foods: Toma has a soft spot for sweet foods. It reminds him of better days when his friends would visit him while his parents were away on business. Chocolate is the prefered sweet of choice since he likes how it makes him feel when he gets a chocolate high.

Affection: Because Toma was neglected, he was never held or hugged. He was, in a sense, starved of that particular emotional fulfillment as a child. He will rarely admit it, and never unless he’s alone with someone, but he does like when people are affectionate with him, and it could be said that it would be easy to manipulate him this way. He’s especially fond of shoulder rubs.

Dislikes:

Cooking: Toma hates cooking with a passion. Mostly because he’s not that great at it. He’s not burning water bad, but meals he makes may be somewhat difficult to enjoy.

Being used: Toma knows he relies too heavily on his emotions. And he knows it leaves him open to being manipulated. Attempts to change have not ended well however. And if his emotions are being used against him, or someone just uses him in general he will be angry. His strength and his life are his own, not someone else’s toys to play with.

Giving up: Toma hates the idea of giving up. And if he doesn’t give up then why should anyone else? That being said sometimes Toma’s emotions drive him to give up, and he’s especially hard on himself about this. Even if he says he gives up on something he usually comes back to it eventually given a little time.

Motivations:

Strength: Toma wishes to be strong. He blames himself for what happened to Astra as much as he blames those that attacked her and her master. If he was stronger, he could have protected or saved her. That’s how he feels at any rate, and so he seeks to become stronger when he can.

Finding Astra: Asttra was his childhood friend, and like a sister to him. Of all the people he knew, she was the one person to acknowledged him like family. Now that she’s missing, he refuses to believe she died like her master, and so he’s scouring Fiore for signs of her.

Affection: Now that Toma’s left home, and his parents don’t come at all, and with Astra being MIA, Toma’s left with no one to acknowledge him. Or show him any kind of affection. This has left Toma in a sort of looping limbo of helplessness and need. So, while it’s not actively on his mind, he is searching for people to fill that void.

Fears:

Arachnophobia: Toma is deathly afraid of spiders. Meeting one earns a violent reaction from Toma if it takes him by surprise. And giant spiders? You won’t find Toma anywhere nearby if he can help it.

Uselessness: Toma hates the idea of being useless. If he’s useless, he won’t be wanted. Which is a direct contradiction to his obsessive need to be needed. Useless in any form, whether he’s not able to help, or he’s physically unable to move for some reason, are a huge fear for him.

[Life]
Occupation: None Currently.
Family: Alfini Hawke (Mother), Terrence Hawke (father), Leo (younger brother, deceased)
Medical Conditions: Partial Congenital Analgesia: Toma was born unable to fully feel physical pain. For him, it’s a dulled sensation, and thus is more likely to hurt himself. This also has a side effect of making him tolerate more in a fight, but just because he can’t feel the damage doesn’t mean it’s not there.

Pets: None
Hometown: Hosenka
Secrets: While it’s not really a secret, Toma doesn’t like talking about how his parents neglected him as a child, and simply weren’t there in his life.

History”:

[Guild & Magic]

Guild: Shadow Heart
Guild Tattoo: Top of Toma’s left forearm, just above the wrist.

Magic: Toma doesn’t currently have a magic, and will be starting with a mundane sword.
Caster or Holder: N/A
Description: N/A
Strengths:N/A
Weaknesses: N/A

RP Sample:

Username: Maxus

Face Claim: Jin Kisaragi from BlazBlue

Desired starting level: 2

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